my memere has finally died, which means i'll probably be out one of these days and another of these nights, probably this thursday and friday, wake thursday, funeral friday, maybe...nothing's certain yet. i'm hoping for that anyhow, if not all a day earlier...i'll be seriously pissed if my dad's desire for flamboyant rites interfere with this satday...

in case anyone has not noticed, i really don't give a shit that's she's dead....she's been struggling for several years now and it really is about time, also, i hardly knew her, once a year sorta person. nevermind i have never really grieved for any dead folk...i just don't understand the sadness. death is just part of life, and definately nothing bad. i also don't see why we should put our lives on pause because someone else's life has ended, [sarcasm] that's certainly a good way to commemmorate a life well lived, not living yours. [/sarcasm]

anyhow, i figured i'd mention that, means i may miss some of this wonderful holiday show time and a day of school, sorry sam, you know i would never do this willingly. if i had the choice i wouldn't got to any of this (though i have some certain joy in the thought that my pepere may show up, and the chaos and harm i'll inflict if he does.)

but that's a different thought, anyway, sorry folk.